Wednesday, 26 March 2008

Happy 134th Birthday, Robert Frost...




Robert Lee Frost.
Born March 26, 1874.
Passed away on January 29, 1963.

The poet of freedom - whose life of 88 years was filled with tragic joy. At times bittersweet, sometimes ironic, or simply marveling at his surroundings, one can also see autobiographical details in Frost’s works. His days were not devoid of tears, though some have thought he was unduly optimistic. His father died when he was ten. His first son, Eliot, died at four. His daughter, Marjorie, married and then died from a childbirth infection. He lived for 25 years after Mrs. Frost died. Five years after her death their other son, Caroli—“who had the seeds of genius in him”—destroyed himself. Another daughter was an invalid.

Robert Frost was not unacquainted with sorrow, but he never tried to be a conqueror of nature, nations, or God. He was a person of power. Instead of cursing God, he joked with him. By laughing at himself, he taught us how to trust. Somehow he had a way of ministering by awakening wisdom in us.


Some say his work is rural and leads folk not to seek to solve complex problems, but only to escape from social responsibility. Perhaps that word is something less than altogether fair. It is true that Robert Frost was neither radical nor conservative.


I never cared to be radical when young
For fear it would make me conservative when old.


Still, he may for all that have been true to life’s classic balance wheel. He was a realist who spoke of a star:


It asks of us a certain height,
So when at times the mob is swayed
To cany praise or blame too far,
We may choose something like a star
To stay our minds on and be staid.


Robert Frost’s poetry hides and reveals the classic motto of universal sanity and health: Never too much! His life shows forth a joyful secret: Love Life without reserve; and be not ashamed to be a swinger of birches.


He was not afraid to live. He was not afraid to die. He had a “lover’s quarrel with the world.”



NOTE : The above write-up is a collation of bits and pieces on Robert Frost found online.

Tuesday, 25 March 2008

The 'Greatest' Poet To Have Ever 'Walked' This Earth...:)





MATH


While lying on my back to make
An angel in the snow,
I saw a greenish craft appear!
A giant UFO!
A strange unearthly hum it made!
It hovered overhead!
And aliens were moving 'round
In view ports glowing red!
I tried to run for cover, but
A hook that they had low'r'd
Snagged me by my overcoat
And hoisted me aboard!
Even then, I tried to fight,
And though they numbered many,
I poked them in their compound eyes
And pulled on their antennae! It was no use!
They dragged me to a platform, tied me up,
And wired to my cranium
A fiendish suction cup!
They turned it on and current coursed
Across my cerebullum,
Coaxing from my brain tissue
The things I wouldn't tell 'em!
All the math I ever learned,
The numbers and equations,
Were mechanic'ly removed
In this brain-draining operation!
My escape was an adventure,
(I won't tell you what I did.)
Suffice to say, I cannot add,
So ask some other kid.


THE EVIL SANTA POEM

My hands were all shaky
My hands are all pale.
A letter from Santa
Had just arrived in the mail.
It was hand written,
In old fashioned ink pen
It was handsomely written
And dated Twelve-Ten.
"Dear Calvin," it said
"I'm writing because
This year I've repealed
My naughty/nice laws. So now I urge you:
Be vulgar and crude!
I like it when children
Are boorish and rude. Burp at the table!
Gargle your peas!
Never say 'Thank you,'
'Your Welcome,' Or
'Please.' Talk back to your mother!
Don't do what you're told!
Stick your tongue out
At your Dad if he scolds.
Drive everyone crazy!
I really don't care.
Act like a jerk
Anytime, Anywhere!
I'm changing the rules!
The Bad girls and boys
Will be, from now on,
The ones who get the toys! Good little kids make
Me sick, its no joke
Sincerely, signed Santa ...
And Then I awoke.
I hate being good
(Or trying to fake it).
Six days until Christmas
I don't think I'll make it.

Monday, 24 March 2008

I'm Not Confused, I'm Just Well-Mixed - ROBERT FROST


REVELATION

We make ourselves a place apart
Behind light words that tease and flout,
But oh, the agitated heart
Till someone really find us out.

'Tis pity if the case require
(Or so we say) that in the end
We speak the literal to inspire
The understanding of a friend.

But so with all, from babes that play
At hide-and-seek to God afar,
So all who hide too well away
Must speak and tell us where they are.





THE LOCKLESS DOOR

It went many years,
But at last came a knock,
And I though of the door
With no lock to lock.

I blew out the light,
I tip-toed the floor,
And raised both hands
In prayer to the door.

But the knock came again.
My window was wide;
I climbed on the sill
And descended outside.

Back over the sill
I bade a 'Come in'
To whatever the knock
At the door may have been.

So at a knock
I emptied my cage
To hide in the world
And alter with age.

Saturday, 22 March 2008

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: It Goes On - ROBERT FROST

Had Robert Frost been alive, he would be 134 come 26th March.

Hmmm...that doesn't sound like a remarkably realistic introduction, does it?:) But it is Robert Frost we are talking about here. Is an introduction necessary at all? :)

Anyway, I was reading Frost's poems and discovered some rather interesting ones that are not as commonly quoted as his other famous ones...thought I'd post some as part of my countdown-to-his-birthday-posts. :)





FIRE AND ICE

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I’ve tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To know that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.


WHAT FIFTY SAID

When I was young my teachers were the old.
I gave up fire for form till I was cold.
I suffered like a metal being cast.
I went to school to age to learn the past.

Now I am old my teachers are the young.
What can't be molded must be cracked and sprung.
I strain at lessons fit to start a suture.
I go to school to youth to learn the future.

Thursday, 20 March 2008

Aval Appadithaan...

Yes...I know... Sivachandran was playing the piano (and not the guitar) in the original clip :). But what can I do...there was no such widget available on this site I stumbled upon today (much to my delight) :)

I heard this song today after a long, long time. I believe it was Kannadhasan who wrote it (the movie is said to have 2 songwriters, the other being Gangai Amaran, thus the slight doubt) but on second thoughts, it has to be Kannadhasan who wrote the song! Between the two, I would not like to have it any other way! :)

Kannadhasan does have this magical ability to make me feel as though he wrote most of his reflective songs for me. LOL. Just kidding there. I am sure literally every other thamizhian in the world shares that sentiment. :)

Its soothing lyrics, coupled with the memories that came back to me of the movie, Aval Appadithaan, and the characterisation of its protagonist (Manju - Sri Priya), served as a reassuring diversion on a lazy evening on a holiday like this...when having extra time to idle away could make one's mind wander into one too many reflections :)


uravugal thodarkat...

Wednesday, 19 March 2008

I Go Weak At My Knees ...

I received this link below from someone recently, and listening to it sure did bring back delightful memories of the past; delightful despite the fears and insecurities that came along with them :). The song, I believe, was released when I was in my late teens - you know, that age when one's young, dreamy-eyed imagination soars into forbidden realms even without knowing what's forbidden, and what's not. :)

When I look at young girls nowadays, and see how openly they get to deal with the sensitive phases of their lives, I marvel at how time changes the views and perceptions of their elders - the same people who, two decades ago, had a long list of taboos that dictated their lives, and whose "restricted vocabulary" mainly revolved around one word - love.

Coming back to the song - yeah, it was one of the very few that had the power to transport me to a world I knew I wasn't supposed (or allowed) to be in then. Beautiful lyrics cleverly combined with a melody that can make one go weak at the knees - age and maturity notwithstanding :)

And I couldn't resist adding the lyrics together with the video - just too tempting to resist :)

kodiyilae malligappoo manakkudhae maanae
edukkavaa thodukkavaa thavikkiraen naanae
parikkach chollith thoondudhae pavazhamallith thoattam
nerunga vidavillaiyae nenjulkullak koochcham

kodiyilae malligappoo manakkudhae maanae
kodukkavaa thadukkavaa thudikkiraen naanae

manasu thadumaarum adhu nenachchaa niram maarum
mayakkam irundhaalum oru thayakkam thadai poadum
niththam niththam un nenappu nenjukkuzhi kaayum
maadu rendu paadhai rendu vandi engae saerum

poththi vechchaa anbu illae sollipputtaa vambu illae
sollaththaanae thembu illae inba thunbam yaaraal

parakkum dhisaiyaedhu indhap parava ariyaadhu
uravum theriyaadhu ulagam puriyaadhu
paaraiyilae poovalarndhu paarthavanga yaaru
anbu konda nenjaththukku aayisu nooru
kaalam varum vaelaiyilae kaaththiruppaen ponmayilae
thaedhi varum unmaiyilae saedhi solvaen kannaa



Tuesday, 18 March 2008

Love Whispers That Do Not Seem To End....

Have you ever allowed BLISS to run through your every nerve?
Have you ever allowed it to soar within you...
As if it were a stream that started out of nowhere -
But was now flowing within you in uncontrollable directions?

Tingling under your skin,
Sending nervous little flutters,
Tickling you into a frenzy,
Making you twitter incredulously in giddy excitement.

And moments later...

Numbing you,
Blinding you,
Carrying you -
effortlessly off the ground defying gravity and reality.
Until you -
In exalted lightness,
In uncontainable intoxication -
Enter the world of momentary oblivion...

It all happened a while ago,
As I was sitting in my favourite little corner,
Attempting to restrain myself within the mundane circle of work deadlines.
Absent-mindedly plugging into my ears -
that which has the magical ability to create an instant tug of war in me
With realities of work pulling at one end,
and passion for words on the other.

That was when Bharathi sent his sparks into me...
Immobilising me into an oblivious state -
In which I could only blankly stare into space,
Inhaling his divine love whispers -
as if they were then my very breath of life.

Suttum Vizhi Chudarthaan - he began
Here, the kiss meant for that cheek of yours which is mine, and mine only to begin with.
Thus saying, he left...

Leaving me -
Floating hither and thither
like an intoxicated spirit...
the kiss still tingling away on my cheek,
his love whispers blowing endless little shivers of ecstasy into my perplexed ears...


Monday, 17 March 2008

Seeking Answers In The Absence of Thoughts...

A colleague read what I had posted yesterday and innocently asked in her email to me, "Am I included in that list of friends you were going to reduce to ashes with your fury...?" I couldn't help feeling bad for a split second there, though I laughed it off as I replied her mail. I assured her that the poem was merely reflective of the burst of energy I had felt during the few minutes that I wrote it. It had to be released - and the poem was an outlet. And no - I had no intention of opening my "invisible third eye" to scorch anyone - not even those who infuriated me, let alone friends :).

I suppose, after all these years, I am finally learning to live in the now. It just so happened that the now during which I wrote that poem was the now that most people would never ever relate to, or view as remotely rational :).

But that's me - a woman of manifold emotions. Hardly the rational sort...

It's not been an easy journey thus far, I must admit. A journey of celebrating oneself - of the person within - hardly ever is. Not if you co-exist with people who always expect something more than what you could ever give.

This is a world filled mostly with people who do not know how to separate the real and the unreal. People who insist on you being the same at all times - without having the depth to see that we all don roles in lives in order to merely subsist. And that one role may not even show the smallest sign of being related to another - because that's how a role should be. It's like you step into a costume, act your role, slip out of it, and move on to the next costume. The costume may vary, but the "you" within that costume remains as you - the one who is true to the soul within you...that you live to celebrate.

How else can one continue living without losing one's originality, and eventually sanity? The option would of course be to immerse yourself in the role that when you slip out and move on, you cannot but carry with you traces of that role (even unknown to you) onto to your next one. A trace of this accumulates to that, and the one thereafter...until you one day become a little of each - but never really who you are within.

In my attempt to not lose the real me, I have lost the many unreal elements that surround my life. I don't view them as being unreal because they are any less important than I am. They are unreal to me simply because they rob me of the reality that I am. So, yeah...in the process of celebrating myself, I may be seen as snubbing the world. But that's really a view that's beyond me to offer an explanation to. All said and done, I know I don my roles well - to the best way that I know how - ensuring that the various groups dependent on my many roles are not deprived in any way of receiving what's rightfully theirs.

What I cannot offer is - more.

Yeah - that may sound as selfish as selfishness can ever be. But to me it just reads as being real. Being who I am within. Being one who is not less her self.

Selflessness is an overstated sentiment, as all extremities are. It's sad how people lose a part of who they are in the name of selflessness. I am not a saint to deny that the "I" in me isn't important to me. I am not concerned about how selflessness can offer me a better life in my next birth. I care not for what I cannot see as real. I shall live my next life when it comes - in the next life.

Spare me the spiritual rigmarole of "putting others above you". It's not for the creative soul that I am. I was never a fan of the once (upon a time) famous Ally McBeal, but I distinctly remember what the character Ally would say to her ex-lover when he asks why is it that only her (Ally's) problems matter - "Because they are mine"

What the society has made us to believe as selfless is hardly ever so. A true selfless person is he who lets go without even having to let it all go. To flow with life and to be in tune with the universe is what selflessness is all about - for you then live life as it takes you - without any concern for where the self goes and where it ends up in.

That's selflessness for you.

The above views are purely my own - they are not posted here to impose them on anyone. This blog is an outlet for the madwoman in me to ramble on without thinking - for I believe in the absence of thoughts comes answers.

I am merely seeking those answers - not consciously offering them to anyone. :)




Now, that's another "Ally McBeal" for you...LOL.

Sunday, 16 March 2008

l Alone Am Real...



NOTE : The use of Goddess Kali's image above with the poem was a subconscious choice made with no malicious motive. Please do not attempt to create a direct connection between the two - there is none.

Thursday, 13 March 2008

An "Open Poem" to Bharathi...

My dear Bharathi,
You probably would have exclaimed in aghast,
Had you been alive today,
In the lingo that we use these days...
The nerve of this woman!

I too wondered -
what gave me the nerve
to even try and read your thoughts -
and translate them into a language,
that would never do justice...
to the beauty of Thamizh that you lived and breathed.

But Bharathi -
as unreservedly as I call you by that name
without the appropriateness that you are often accorded with,
that's how as candidly I felt your thoughts in me.
It was as if during that moment when I pondered over your poem,
we both spoke one and the same language...
Only yours sounded Thamizh, and mine English.

So you see Bharathi -
I was merely recording your thoughts
Into a language you did not care to "speak" in then.
Not that it is any greater than the one you loved - it is not.
But I needed to read and feel you, Bharathi,
And I saw no other way of doing so,
Except to re-read and re-feel you in the only way that I know...
Do forgive me if I have flawed in doing so.

And I beg you to bless me -
Like how a mother would her child despite her (the child's) flaws.
For I believe I stand before you today...
As the child who had probably crossed set boundaries.

But a loving and doting mother, are you not...
And surely, accept me you will,
...won't you Bharathi?


Ninnai Charanadainthen in English (as I felt it to be...)

I surrender unto you, dear Kannamma
I surrender unto you

I, who yearn for riches, prestige and fame - that
I be spared from the jaws of misery,
(I surrender unto you, dear Kannamma)

Fear and cowardice that reside within my heart - that
They are killed and rooted out of me,
(I surrender unto you, dear Kannamma)

That my worries and self-preoccupation be ended, and instead - that
I become contained through selfless acts
(I surrender unto you, dear Kannamma)

There is no more sorrow in me, no weariness, no drawbacks - that
Virtues be made to flourish in the name of love,
(I surrender unto you, dear Kannamma)


I know not the good from the bad - in you I trust, so
Make the goodness in me prevail, and the evil driven away!
(I surrender unto you, dear Kannamma)


நின்னை சரணடைந்தேன் - கண்ணம்மா!
நின்னை சரணடைந்தேன்

பொண்ணை உயர்வைப் புகழை விரும்பிடும்
என்னை கவலைகள் தின்ன தகாதென்று (நின்னை)

மிடிமையும் அச்சமும் மேவியென் நெஞ்சில்
குடிமை புகுந்தனே, கொன்றவை பொக்கென்று (நின்னை)

தன்செய லெண்ணித் தவிப்பது தீர்திங்கு
நின்செயல் செய்து, நிறைவு பெரும்வனம் (நின்னை)

துன்பம் மிநிஇல்லை, சோர்வில்லை, தோற்பில்லை
அன்பு
நெறியில் அரண்கள் வளர்ந்திட
(நின்னை)

நல்லது தீயது நாமறி வோம்,
நல்லது நாட்டுக! தீமையை ஓட்டுக! (நின்னை)


Grief...

I saw Grief drinking a cup of sorrow

I called out,
“It tastes sweet, does it not? ”

Grief answered;
“Oh, you’ve caught me and ruined my business. How can I sell sorrow, when you know it’s a blessing?

Jalaluddin Rumi (1207-1273)


Am I There Within You, O Green One...?

Wednesday, 12 March 2008

Lessons From The Humble Garden...

Nature often teaches us life's greatest lessons. I learnt a few over the past week.

  • What's true today may not be so tomorrow.
  • It's important to be more aware of our surroundings - not just as something you watch and admire from afar, but as something you literally come into physical contact with.
  • People must not be classified. Human beings are way too complex to fall under classifications.
  • For every 5 annoying parts of a person, there would be at least 1 pleasant one. Turn a blind eye over the 5, and the 6th will get us going.
Yeah, nature taught me all that. I have no inkling how - but it did.



Grandness that has been near me for the past year, but which I only really noticed today



This tree, with its amazing "regrowth" in the past week, is a "teacher" in its own right




And yet, to keep us grounded to the realities of life, this too exists in the same surroundings


Monday, 10 March 2008

Little Lamb, Who Made Thee...?

I attended a school carnival last Saturday, and managed to take a few shots (especially of these lovelies) before my camera's battery died out on me...



Wani, May Li, Shoba
I know those are not your names,
I gave them to you anyway,
No, not because I take names lightly,
Because you girls were too beautiful to go unnamed.

Only a while ago did I realise,
That the three of you were of 3 different races.
When I first saw you girls through the lens of my camera,
I did not see your races, or your colours,
I only saw the lucidity of your eyes.

And in those lovely eyes I saw,
The blooming of divine innocence.
The anticipation of endless tomorrows.
The hopes of boundless delights.
The many mountains you knew you could move.

But now, as I look at your faces,
(which would bring out the natural motherly instincts in anyone)
All I see flashed in my mind’s eye,
Are the unborn children I conceived and birthed,
In the world of imaginary motherhood that I sometimes slip into.

My dear Wani, May Li, Shoba,
Whoever you are, and whatever your real names are,
Keep that light in your eyes shining as bright as ever,
Keep believing that the endless tomorrows are yours to live,
Above all, keep that innocence dancing on your lovely little faces.


Sunday, 9 March 2008

Calvin & I...


Perhaps there is a little Calvin in me, afterall :). O what the heck! THERE'S A WHOLE LOT OF CALVIN IN ME. There, I've said it! :)