I Found Myself This Afternoon...

I found myself this afternoon...

I stopped suddenly ,
and stepped into the back of my mind,
and sat there quietly
watching myself,
all still,
staring into space,
thinking how life would now be.
Now that I,
(the "I" that's being watched )
am standing
at the crossroads of life.

That was when
I realised
that that was not I,
no,
that was she,
she whom I can do without,
she who is within me only due to familiarity.
I realised then,
that I am no more she,
and that I am this new being,
who has the awareness to step within,
as and when it (as genderless as this being within is) wishes,
and observe life as an outsider.

I clasped my hands then,
in deep gratitude,
to the one above.
in deep awareness,
of the greatness above.
I saw then, within me,
a part of Him,
that would from now on be always there,
guarding me with all its greatness,
embracing me in all its awareness.

Indeed I have found myself this afternoon...