A Game Piece in HIS Hands...

I could use a dose of wisdom now :)

It's that time of my life again (happens quite consistently I must admit) when I take a good look at myself and say, "hey, I don't know you anymore." Looking back at the way I had been behaving lately, I realise that I am losing track of the path I started heading towards some years back.

Distractions? I wouldn't exactly call them that. For one, I am a person who believes that every single incident in life is for some good - eventually. So nahhh...they can't possibly be distractions. Lessons perhaps? I know for a fact that the man above does have a tendency to send them in all shapes and sizes into my life. They'd come splashing into my life drowning me in ecstasy which often blinds me in the process of the reality of their identities. And while HE snugly sits up there watching me with a mocking smile, I would sheepishly fall for the "let's trick her first and teach her later" plan of HIS. Like a perfect fool that I can sometimes be, I would believe HIM, then question HIM, and then believe HIM while not wanting to, and eventually present myself as yet another win in HIS bet of my life.

Sighhhhh. Does HE not have anything better to do, I wonder?

Of course there are times when I am smarter than HE is. :) Times when I quickly pick up the signs of one of HIS games coming up, and stop myself from being dragged into it as a game piece - times when I pull myself back from the temptations with a quick slap in the face . Yeah I do that, literally. Watch me when I drive and you'd be surprised at how many times I do that :) Of course, since it's my own cheek I slap, I do go gentle on them. Not painless-kinda-gentle. But gentle nevertheless :)

But I have not been slapping myself much these days. And that's HIS victory, I suppose.

But I'll have my day soon, my good man...did YOU think that I'd fall every time? Give me more credit than that, will YOU? Did YOU not think that I'd probably have at least one percent of YOUR quick-wittedness? Can a child not have a part of the one who made her?

I'll get YOU some day...YOU can bet my life on it :)